So I've had this blog for a few years now & it's changed so many different times. Let's see how long I can keep this one going :) For my second birthday I got a book titled "1001 Movies To See Before You Die" or something like that. There's a story behind it. Christmas of 2011, my dad, brother, & I drove to Idaho to visit family(this was right before they all went psycho crazy on us). While on the way we stopped for a seriously early breakfast in a cute little town somewhere on our route. In this little cafe like place, there was a book consisting of 1001 movies to see before you die. The three of us sat there for a good hour enjoying our coffee & croissants, heads buried deep into this book. Well, my amazing father remembered that when he came across it's updated version a month ago. With his wonderful heart, he gifted it to me. All that said, dear reader, I am determined to actually watch all 1001 movies before I die. Crazy? Yes. Time consuming? Eh, maybe. An adventure? Absolutely. Plus, I want the bragging rights that I've seen AT LEAST 1001 movies, dating back from 1903 :) I mean, how many people can say they've done that?! Exactly.
So, I think the last time I was active with this whole blog thing was when I was attending DBU, which wasn't that long ago. I am now currently located in a horrible town known as Denton, going to a seriously liberal school full of crazy women wonderfully called Texas Woman's University. Don't ask how I got here unless you're ready for a nice long drawn out story. Anyhow, I can't stand it. So, after I went to visit my best friend (& yes, she's pretty freaking wonderful) in Oxford, Ms I completely fell in love. With Ole Miss that is ;) well, okay & Oxford. It's as close to England as I can get right now. Psst, it is actually closer to England seeing as how it's NE of DFW. Ha! Okay, I'll stop.
All that brings me to this next part. I've wonderfully titled this paragraph (as if this is an apa styled paper) "What is the question? To move, or not to move." Cute eh? Yeah, I thought so too. I know I don't have much room to complain, but I have such a heavy decision to make. It's either, stay here & go to UNT to be close to Khaibar, or move to Ole Miss & be closer to Angela. My parents are possibly moving to Okinawa now(donut passed his PMP exam today!!!!) & so I will literally be family-less(the rest of my 'family' is completely nuts). My decision needs to be made final asap too :/ I resent a trascript today so it better arrive this time. My hearts in so many different places. This has been such a stressful week. Witnessed a car wreck on Monday that almost involved me, had a deep talk with my parents & boyfriend on Tuesday, felt a piece of the Lord's heart for people & cried deeply(see below for more details) as well as getting scared to death finding a scary note on my apt building next to my car on Wednesday. Thankfully Thursday was fairly relaxing & I worked some today. Spring Break? I'll spend it working. Now, I'm not complaining about that but I do for once have a crap load of school stuff to do/catch up on. Whatever shall I do?
See what I mean? It's a lot. So, I'm sure you're curious about that crazy God moment I had Wednesday. I'll tell ya. Because of the emotional evening with my parents & Khaibar the night before I woke up Wednesday feeling heavy hearted. I made some major apologies before my 11a class, & during. Because of these, I was an emotional wreck of course. Upon getting to my second class(my least fav this semester) we were talking about friendship, marriage, divorce, etc. A topic came up about cohabitation & being the God fearing woman that I am, I had to give my conservative opinion. I did. Guess what. The girl behind me "Hey! Hey you." I turn around & face her. "Are you Catholic?" I shake my head and say no. "Oh, you're not?" I shake my head again. "Okay." I'm like, WTH?! The rest of the opinions given there after made me feel like an idiot. Then a girl starts talking about how she hates the church because they were against divorce so her mother didn't divorce her abusive father until much later than she should have & blah blah blah. So, I'm tired of the Church getting a bad rap. Okay, not every believer is the same & I'm sorry you've had a bad experience. That doesn't give you a reason to completely shut off your Creator, but what do I know. I think at this point, my emotions couldn't handle it. The tears couldn't be stopped and I started crying. I think I cried the whole way home. I'm talking gut wrenching pain. Upon questioning my mum, it was almost realized that maybe He is showing me His heart for people. Let me tell you, if what I experienced/felt is even an ounce of what He feels, I cannot imagine it's entirety. I grieve so deeply for people. Along with a few other things the Lord's been igniting my heart on, that is one of them. Hurting for the broken & lost.
Phew, that's a lot. & a lot I've needed to get off my chest & out of my mind. It feels good to write. I think I am going to try and write some more on my book. It's close to be finished. Well, as far as finishing the chapters. I don't think a book, for it's author, can ever really be complete. I must admit, I miss Tom, Lyla, Journey, Dan, Rupert, & even Ocean. Mmm, it's decided...I will be writing this week. Inbetween working for the next 9 days, & getting school work caught up. Such a dedicated writer I am. I'll try not to forget about you lot as well ;)
Until next time! Enjoy His daily blessings & soak in His love.
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