I don't have a title for this...

Thankfully this isn't connected to facebook, twitter, or even tumblr. Sometimes you just need to talk without worrying about who is going to read it, & blah blah blah.
I don't know if I have said this before but, I'm glad the Lord opened my eyes before I moved. I'm extremely happy to be staying here with Khaibar, & my parents. It's been an issue trying to get my deposit back from the leasing office in Oxford. They think they can hold my money, even though I haven't applied nor signed the lease. Angela has, yet she isn't responsible for paying the rest of the deposit? Then I find out she isn't trying to live there anymore, wth?! It's sad to see a 9yr friendship somewhat end over a stupid boy. I honestly don't think I could ever trust her again after this whole thing. I want to close out, & move on.
In other news, going to Devin's graduation this evening O_O I can't believe my little brother is graduating...tomorrow is his grad party, so it should be interesting with everybody...My mum's having a hard time with it all, but we'll get through it.
Still not sure exactly where I'm going to school in the fall...gonna try & submit everything to UNT on Monday. Would rather be there than TWU.
Anyhow, needed to get some stuff out of my head. See ya next time ;)

Stuck in Neutral? No.

Want to start this one off with thanks to the Lord for His obvious hand in my life these last several months. He's given me joy, strength, wisdom, humility, & love. I've tried doing things on my own, & He's stepped in at the right time to remind me who is in charge :)

With that said, I'm learning to be okay with His results. Not moving means I am staying exactly where I am. Thankfully God had given me another school alternative that I'm incredibly thankful for. It's peaceful knowing I'm staying close to my parents, & to Khaibar. They are my huge support system. I'm so grateful He's blessed me with three amazing individuals.

Ready to conquer the summer & work towards honoring His kingdom daily. Thank you for walking this journey with me :)

A Month

Okay, so it's been almost a month. There's much to tell. First, I'll be moving to Oxford in August O_O Yup, starting to freak out a bit. Lately, because of done issues, I've been second guessing my decision. Everything was fine until about a week ago when my future roommate decided it was necessary to freak out over her boyfriend possibly not living with us. Whatever, I don't want to get started on that...I'd go on all night.& second, my parents will not be moving to S Korea. This one has some + & some - to it...thankfully they'll be in the same country (& timezone), & so I'll have a home to come to. Downside, financially this sucks.

I'm so thankful I just have finals now then I can be completely free of TWU. Praying for a B in social psy. The midterm grade was what has my grade so low :/ frustrating. Gotta catch up ALL of my stats homework this weekend. Going to see Iron Man 3 with the guys later ;)

With love,
Ariel

Revelations-from the Father

His love shines at Calvary, now I proclaim that Jesus reigns in victory! From the cross, from the grave, He rose victoriously. Son of God, King of love, He reigns victoriously.
The Father finds so much joy in you & who He created you to be! Let that joy radiate through you today, & every day. Because the Lord is good, when there is nothing good in you. He is love when you feel unloved, peace when there's war in your heart/mind, truth when nothing seems right, hope when you feel lost & confused, light in those darkest moments, & He is life when you feel numb. Let Him bring you to life today!! You will never be the same when you welcome Him in to be your comforter. Be second, because nothing matters more than He does! I promise you, nothing  compares to the love of your Father. He created you, He loves you, & He will never, ever leave you. We are each His beloved.
Jesus died on the cross that day, not because He had to, but because He chose to. He wanted to sacrifice Himself, even for those who will never choose Him. That is His kind of love. He suffered, bled, & died so that we may each have life & life abundantly. Tell me, what greater gift is there than His love for you? I promise sweetheart, there isn't one. Having a relationship with Him isn't about rules & rituals. It's just that, a relationship. It is a two way love, & it is eternal. He is our eternal love. It isn't this, "Oh God is for those who need something to keep them going." No. The Lord is there all the time. In the laughter, tears, joys, & pains the Father is present. Look around you...you can see Him if you open your eyes, heart, & mind to all that He can do for you. & He does it because He is so in love with you. He doesn't care who you are, what color your skin is, what you look like, & what you have done. He loves you because you are His child. Embrace that & see what He can do in your life.

Being a believer isn't all sunshine & flowers, it's rough. Daily I am looked down upon for following the Father. Daily I fail Him, I screw up. I could say it's just because I'm human but it's really because I am not without sin. We all are, even pastors. We make mistakes, we aren't perfect. That's why we turn to the only one who is, Jesus Christ. I cannot stress enough the amount of love our Creator has for us. He is the greatest Father one could ever have/need/want. He is without sin, therefore you can lean into Him & know you are safe. The Father's arms are always open, He'll never push you away, or tell you you're not good enough. When you allow Him to be in control of your life, He becomes the good that is inside of you. He is good even when your heart is in a million pieces. You begin to see the world through His eyes. Let Him show you how He feels, what He sees.

I am so thankful that the Lord is allowing me to see things the way He does.
However, with this I am realizing how what we are doing is breaking His heart...for mine is breaking too.

He created this incredible land, amazing creatures, & beautiful people...yet because of sin we have fallen so far down into this hole. And what's even worse is we keep digging deeper thinking we are going in the right direction when if we would just take the time, turn around & see His light, we could so easily come back to Him.
-Since when did we decide that "gay marriage" was acceptable & not a complete oxymoron.
-Since when did the media decide they knew what was socially acceptable.
-Since when did we think it was okay to elect a man to lead Americans when he hates it & everything that it stands for?
-Or how about deciding when life begins in the womb instead of what the Father says? Why is it okay to murder an innocent fetus, but not man?
-Since when did we decide that rapists get short term sentences when they've completely ruined the life of another.
-As for murderers, they get off because they have mental issues? No.
-Do away with the death penalty? Why, so you feel better & can sleep at night? What about the families affected by the death of their loved one? How do you think they feel?
-Who decided it would be okay to make our military, the individuals who give up their LIVES to protect this country, fight for nothing?

My heart just, doesn't understand. Imagine how the Father feels...He created something great & society has just decided He doesn't exist. We didn't get here from a big bang people, seriously.

Open your eyes to the direction this once great country is headed & allow the Father to change your heart. One by one we can bring America back to a country who looks to it's Creator for guidance, instead of a man full of sin.

He's preparing me to fight for His Kingdom!

Follow up.

Okay, it's been a crazy few weeks. Peter Pan was amazing!!! I definitely felt 6 again! Cathy Rigby did a wonderful job, & she's like 60 something. Donut actually did Peter Pan with her back in the day. He played Slightly (lost boy) & Cathy played Peter :) lol

Going with Khaibar was lovely too!!

Neverland

I am so excited!!
Tonight, Khaibar & I are going to the Bass Hall to see Peter Pan: Musical. I must admit, I've always been in love with dear, sweet Peter & the thought of never having to grow old. To live freely, laugh often, play every day,  tell stories, fight the bloody pirates, & fly when I don't want to walk.
To swim with mermaids, fight alongside indians, & flee from a ticking alligator. Yes, these are the dreams of Ariel :)

I will post again upon my return...if I do, that is.

-Ariel

Papadeaux

Alright, so last night I was originally going to have dinner with my dad, but my mum's plans were cancelled so she came along. It ended up being a pre birthday dinner :) (today is her birthday!!) Anyhow, we went to Papadeaux in Dallas. Our waiter was absolutely amazing!! He was just phenomenal, & extremely personable. His name was Eric & he certainly made the meal. I will be going back, if only for him(though, the food was delicious too!).

The reason he is wonderful? Well, as we found out AFTER we finished eating, he sings opera. His mother was the manager there for years so he basically grew up in that restaurant. He attends a private school there in Dallas, and he had a wonderful sense of humor! There were so many hilarious things, I honestly can't even remember them all. The meal, and my parents, were hilarious and fun in themselves though! Like, my mum threw a blueberry at my dad, and it hit the girl at the table behind us. A little later, Eric came by to take the bill and he asked if it was split or one. My mother, jokingly was telling him split. As he was walking away, I pointed that it'll be on one. He preceded to go to the table next to us, yes the one with the girl who got hit by the blueberry, and tells them we would like them to cover our tab. They look over at us as we burst out laughing. Eric grinned and walked away.

He gave us a bottle of wine, free of charge, as well as dessert though I'm sure that was because of my mums birthday. My mum couldn't figure out how we got our bottle free, so when she asked Eric about it, he response was as simple, "Cause I'm 250lbs of sexy. That's why." Ohman, he was adorable.

Couldn't tell if he was just a friendly, funny guy, or seriously trying to flirt. Whatever the case, dinner was a blast! I am looking forward to dinner again tonight. Only this time, we'll have Susan & Mimms who are equally precious!

Until then. ciao!

-Ariel